Day 24 of the November Poem-A-Day Chapbook project – The truth about. I continue on my theme, poems of, about and for Dad.
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Do you really want to know the truth about
My life without you?
Like a nightmare of lacks
of chances, belief, or hope
A series of
hysterical fits,
depression and euphoria.
Wishing the world would really end
before the end of December.
The truth about this nightmare
is my age, spent time and wear-out.
The truth about me involving you
is looking for excuses.
The truth about me is
I’m a failure.
© soul mary
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Sometimes I feel like a total failure, too, but if you sit back and think, you’ll realize you are just human.
Linda, thank you for saying that. I suppose that is in the core of everything – human nature. 🙂
Failures are those who don’t try, don’t give, don’t care about another soul. You are NOT a failure. You are a creator, a giver, and a caring human being. We all see that in you, and I pray you will see it in yourself as well.
Warm hugs to you, beautiful lady.
Thank you, MEG! Warm hugs to you, too. 🙂
Everyone has moments of feeling like a failure, but you need to find the joy around you – your cat, birds singing, fresh air, snowflakes, smell of ink and paper – whatever gives you a little lift! You are not a failure. Keep on writing my friend, your words are touching people around the world.
My heart hurts for you. I lost my dad in 2007 after watching him struggle with cancer. I miss him every day. And so I can relate to your feelings. You are not alone.
Though I can also relate to your feelings of failure, your poetry brings emotions and appreciation to others. That, in itself, is an accomplishment to be proud of.
Sending you (((hugs))).
I think it was the great Wayne Gretzky who said, “You’ll never score if you don’t take a shot” – I’ve just done a quick review of some of your poems Mary and you score on so many levels, in my view, you could never be a failure … this poem alone proves it. In fact, it would probably stand as is if you left the last line off – just saying. Peace.
Sincere thanks to:
Michelle – yes, I know, it’s just a passing phase. I know, but decided to say all that just to hear it myself.
Linda – what I found out about struggling the feeling of loss after a loved one’s death is that time doesn’t help and pain only grows with it.
Sharon – thank you so much for your kind words. Perhaps it will be better if I reconsidered the last line. I don’t like it very much, in fact.
Thank you 🙂